Monday, October 02, 2006 00:53
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not really in the mood. i just got home from my great grandma's wake at Hougang. when i got there, no chilren was there. only toddlers. my closer cousins wasn't there as she will be having her PSLE later as my younger cousin will be having her EOY exams. so sat there, fold those joss paper with my relatives.
i feel so fatigue now. maybe i didn't get a good sleep last night as i've cried myself to sleep. eyes was abit swollen when i woke up this morning. my neck still hurts after 5 days. =( today is the 6th days. POOR ME! i HATE the feelings i'm going through now. everything just came crashing down on me at the wrong time. but what can i do? i got to face EVERYTHING. mum will be leaving to the hospital for her operation in the morning. it will be a serious operation. that's what i heard from my mum. she will be hospitalized after her operation and she will be given 1 month of MC. got to take care of my mum as my dad will be going to overseas at the end of this month.
actually Pauline and I planned to go to the ZOO later. but everything was cancelled due to ME! Pauline, i'm really so sorry. i have to postpone the outing to next week. i really feel so bad as i've been always pushing this outing to a later schedule. i'm really sorry. i PROMISE i will go to the ZOO with you next week :)
have not been meeting dear since Saturday. i really do miss him so so so much. i want to hug him tight NOW! :( other people might think 3 days is nothing. but it feels like a month to me. i think i know why i feel this way. it was maybe i used to meet dear almost everyday during the holidays. besides that, i felt that dear was giving me cold shoulders now. i may be hallucinating, but i really do feel this way. i felt so heartBROKEN. i'm at the verge of breaking down. ='( if you say that u can't cheer me up, then who can? what you've said really hurt me. what you mean was you can't give me happiness in another way? sigh. i really don't know wad to do. complicated. you make me think on the negative side which i hate to do so.
