Thursday, April 26, 2007 21:44
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Tomorrow will be Friday & it means last day of week 1 (: I don't really like school now especially this semester. Workload is heavy and almost all the modules are so difficult. Boy had left for overseas today morning. We talked over the phone last night & still I can't control my tears. I just got this feeling that my heart is tearing apart although he will be back on Sunday. I just can't hold back my tears and I cried for half an hour. I cried myself to sleep last night and woke up once every 2 hours. I was so anxious that I will missed boy's morning call. I really want to hear him talk to me before he board the plane. After my morning shower, I messaged boy & I started to tear again. Why is this so? In school, I managed to control my tears but once I'm at home or all by myself, I will start to cry again ): After school, went over to meet sister at TM. Shopped around and went home by myself. Reached home, watched TV an went to took my shower before I started to slack in front of my laptop. Boy was so sweet & good to leave me a comment in friendster before he leave. But again, I can't hold back my tears. I'm so useless and emotional. I just hate myself at times for being such a failure. Right now, I'm waiting to give me a call since he promised me that he will call me everyday. I'm still waiting for his call although I'm feeling fatigue now. I really don't want to miss his call as I really want to hear his voice & I miss him so much. I felt so lost without him. Thanks to those who kept me accompanied. [classmates, Pauline & Janice] I really appreciate it. Till here. Good night.
*3 more days till boy will be back :(
