Sunday, May 31, 2009 20:14
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Quoted from Janice's blog. Happy 21st birthday my dear! :) I know this is probably the most difficult phase you've ever been through but hang in there, life will get better. He is a well respected man, we all can see that through the 3 days and it really warms my heart to know that there are so much more people that actually cares. Find solace in knowing that he had moved on to another world while doing something he loved. His lifelong passion. He must be grinning at you from above, because from where he is, he can see whatever little things you're doing and know every of your littlest secrets. Your Daddy will not only just walk you down the aisle one day, he will be the first to know that you're gonna get married and guide you through your marriage. He is secretly watching his little girl turn 21 today and he is giving you all the blessings that you can ever have in your life. Because his job is so huge that he can't stay here to do what he have to do, he needs to go somewhere higher so that he can watch over thousands and thousands of people at the same time from where he is now. I believe your Daddy had actually blessed me for my sports day today even as I was reminded of him before my run when my friends were passing the medicated oil(Yoko Yoko) around. Its scary how you'd actually watched me grow from a...........primary school girl (lets just not add too much details. :X) to who I am now and I believe, you'd actually subconsciously mould me into who I am today. There's so much I want to say and this space is too open for the world to see. But remember from the countless neoprints to the after-school-meet-up to East Point? Remember our meet up place? Those are the simplest thing that we've ever done that I'll never forget, ever. We have this bond that is so extraordinary that really, not anyone can have it overnight. As cliche as it can ever be, you know you've someone to turn to even if its at 5am in the morning when the whole world is fast asleep. I promise I'll wake up just for you. :) You've been an extremely strong girl and I'm really really proud of you, I'm sure your Daddy is too♥♥♥♥♥♥♥P.S. wait for me to be done with the mOn'ster chinese then we can talk about anything under the sun again. :)Quoted from my dearest cousin, Leng Jenthere are just so many things that happened over the past few days.good and the bad,which i wish would never happen in my life at all to start with.two seperate and totally different events,happened on one same day.i dont really have the mood to blog right now.but i am because i haven blogged in ages.im just so tired.very tired.mentally.i slept from 4 to 8 today in the afternoon.i could have continued sleeping.but decided not too.there so much i want to say.im aching inside somehow.it seems that things from now will change forever.i wore so many masks to school yesterday and today.i was so fake for the past two days.nobody knew what was burning deep down inside me.none of them had a clue what happen.nobody found out the truth.im a good actor arent i?pretending nothing has happen and carrying that smile on my face.acting as if the whole world is fine when actually it sucks to to max now.my exams are coming,in less than a week.so stressed for it,worrying like hell every single second.i know im not prepared.but do you think i want to think about all this?it's not my choice.it isnt.and im sure about it.my heart,is full of mixed feelings and confusion.on one hand,im trying to accept the truth,that happen so sudden.i cant believe it actually happened.i was so heartbroken.on the other,im trying to be indifferent to you.to kill and surpress the feelings that keeps trying to resurface.do you know how hard it is to tell myeslf not to think about it?all along i've been contemplating on giving up on the past,looking towards the future and live my life happily.i finally did it,after 5 months of pain.im over him and the relationships we had.i tried to accept both of you for who you two are.i somehow achieved that.slowly,bit by bit.what should i feel?what should i do?am i really over it?all those questions keep coming up.and something that happen really struck me.i cried for so long.wailing to be exact.in the bathroom in my room.i couldnt let anyone know because i dont want them to worry.i know i have to be strong,for myself and for the people around me.it was just so sudden.i realised you meant much more to me than i thought.i'll miss you a lot.everyone will miss you.i'll remember you for who you are and the imprints you left in my life.i'll remember you forever.in memory.and i'll be praying that you'll be fine and happy there.i didnt have the chance to say anything to you.full of regret.nobody had the chance to.im wondering if you had anything to say to us,before you left.im so heratbroken that this had to happen.but i hope you are still happy.maybe somewhere up there watching over us.please be happy.thats the last thing i can wish for.i love you,-----.thanks for being part of my life for the last fifteen years.i'll keep those in mind.goodbye and take care.love.
Quoted from my dearest cousin, Leng YenHello:).some things cropped up in the past few weeks.in this few weeks,just for 14 days,it was a struggle for me to focus on anything,it is too hard.life is fragile,just like glass,it will break when you accidentally knock it,unknowingly.the news was tragic,it was unexpected.a drop of tear ran down my cheeks,he was so caring,humorous and a pleasure to be accompanied by...so many flashbacks,in my mind.i remembered an incident that happened when i was just 5,i remembered that he pretended to be a pilot,and pretended that his car was an aircraft.he was the greatest man on earth.no words can describe how magnificent he was.but why would his fate make a u-turn,when it was going on well when it was going straight??
0922: the last time i am going to see him...
0927: the brilliant smie i saw, that told me hat everything was alright.
1130: he's gone,to a place much nicer than Earth,where he can enjoy life...
To the magnificent superhero,
How are you?we miss you a lot.you've been a great guy,ever so loving and committed.over 600 people visited you,i am honoured to have you as my relative.you did anyhing that you could to bring fun,joy and happiness to us.no one can replace you in our hearts,no matter how long we live,no mater how far we are,and no matter how hard our life is,you will be in our hearts,from now,till forever.we all love you.
From,Leng Yen
P.S. Thank you for all the words. Thank you for being there for me. Special thannks to C131, Janice, Jeremy, Joanna, TX, Ee Peng, Wei Qing, Pauline & friends from sec sch. Thank you so much.
